Snuffalupagus

      Remember that guy? He used to be Big Birds friend on Sesame Street! I haven't seen that show for years so I have no idea if he's still there (probably not....that show got sooooo screwy...) but I loved him. And today I feel a little bit like him, stuffed up and a little depressed.
      We're all feeling a little under the weather this week, and I'm just barely starting to feel it. So really all I feel like typing is nnnnnnnnngggggg. But the world must go on. I sometimes feel like just typing this out makes me feel a little more sane so that's what I'm doing. Sort of.
      Today I made a dinner of fried rice, and it's just sitting on the stove with no one wanting to eat it. I made it out of necessity because I feel like we should have a good dinner on the table even though sometimes no one wants to eat it. With only three people in the house things are a lot different. So quiet all the time, and only my parents to talk to. Not that it's a bad thing, really they're great! But sometimes it just starts getting to you. Also the fact that I just can't seem to get a good job is getting me down. I have my hopes up that someone will call me tomorrow. We'll see. But what with soooo much time passing already, I can only work there, like two months and then I'm back to college. Sigh. Sigh sigh sigh. I think this is just a hard bit in my life. It shall get better when I go back to college I think.
      Sorry this one is just about me complaining. What is something good that has happened these past days?
Well, I got some money from what little work I'm doing, YAY! Also I had an AWESOME weekend with my whole family, which I wrote about before......and really I'm much luckier than many people, so I shouldn't complain.
      I will end this blog by showing my nerdy side and quoting Gandalf (because I just watched Lord of the Rings) when Frodo told him that he wished that he didn't have to deal with all the crap he was supposed to deal with. Or to be more elegant, Frodo said something like "I wish the ring had never come to me, I wish none of this had happened"
and Gandalf replied: "So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All you have to decide is what to do with the time that is given you."
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Wood thieves? My first instinct would be beavers, but i'm not willing to rule out those pesky keebler elves.

That my nonexistent friends reading this, is a quote from the TV show Psych which I watched with my little sister this evening. I love that show, but especially when I'm watching it with her, because everything is better when you're with your family and friends, which I was, this whole weekend. It was awesome. I'd forgotten how silly we get when we are all together. So much fun.

It was all fun, from our two epic Nertz battles, to a crazy, crazy DDR night. Neither Amber nor Jodie had danced the whole time I was gone, so it was fun to get together and reminisce and create some more memories as well.

This afternoon we went up Logan canyon a ways and took some family pictures. It was sooooooooo beautiful there. The leaves are at their most beautiful, and I shall stick a picture on here that I took with my phone. Not the best, cuz, it's from my phone, but hey. :)

So yeah. It was really fun. I kind of wish that I could just rewind this week and live it again, because now, when I wake up in the morning, I have to concentrate on getting more work again. Sigh. I just get a little depressed sometimes.

Also today I spoke in two wards today as a returned missionary. It was pretty fun. It makes me happy to know that I have become much more confident than I was before my mission, and I can do things like that pretty easily, or rather, I don't get so nervous I throw up or anything like I used to sorta do. So yeah. That's good. :) It's also good to remember things from my mission. It's really easy to forget.

Well, I think that's all I can think of for this report. Keep on keepin' on!
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Screwing in screws and

 Oh life. Life life life. Sometimes I just wish you didn't have to be stressful a good portion of the time.

Right now I'm sitting here waiting for my pops to come out and play Farkle or another such game with me. It's great fun. A game with dice completely up to luck. If you don't know how to play and would like to, look it up on google, I've no time to put it here. Plus that would be boring.
So, update on my life. I finally got a job yay! At Autoliv, and I want to claw my eyeballs out sometimes when I work there, on account of its so boring I'm going to die. But it's a job, and I will endure because I really need the money. Also I clean up a random factory called "Nobilus." They make doors I think.
So, I just lost spectacularly to my dad in a game of up-words. But it was really fun. I love Sunday evenings, they're the best. But tonight I'm tired. I'll do better next time. It'll be a nice long entry, with lots of smiles, and swirls, and happy things. Ehh.
Ok I think that's about it for tonight. I'm tired. Also it's late, all things indicate I should go to bed soon. So that is what I shall do.

Still not really knowing what to write.

I really feel like i should write in this to document the fact that my life is going by, but lately I just don't feel like there is anything to write about. I've just been looking for jobs, and getting more and more depressed as the days go by. It's stupid Satan getting to me.
But hopefully it's all going to change here in the next few days. I'm hopefully going to have at least one part-time job as a janitor, cleaning some facility, and maybe another one at Autoliv as a temporary worker. I think that will improve my outlook on life significantly. :)
So, ya. Life as a returned missionary is turning out to be harder than I thought it would be. When I was still out there, I just didn't know what to expect because it seemed like my whole life had been spent being a missionary, and my life before that was just a dream, words on a computer screen every P-day, and the occasional letter. But it's all here, all real, and now my previous life as a missionary is starting to feel more and more like the dream. I hate it. I hate it, and I don't know what to do about it. Just accept that this is the life I have now, and deal with it. Easier said than done. But it can be done, with help. If there's one thing I have definitely learned, it's that NOTHING is impossible if you have the Lord on your side. So that's what I'm going to do. จบ.