Want to know what's really hard to listen to? A screaming baby. Like, inconsolable, ridiculously loud, I think somebody is probably trying to murder me, mommy why won't you fix it screaming. But apparently it's sometimes a good thing to let a baby sit and scream, because then they learn to comfort themselves or something, and learn something else about blah blah blah I don't know. Anyway. It's still hard to listen to. I want to pick her up and console her, but that has already been done quite a lot and she is definitely inconsolable. So now I get to listen to a screaming baby for an hour and a half until Jayna gets home from work. Perhaps she's cry herself to sleep, though she's already had three short naps today. Ok let's turn up the music and move on. *Pause here for a sec while I turn up the music...done. :)

So, I didn't get the job. Boo. But whatevs you just gotta get over it and move on. To be honest I didn't think I would get it because my practical interview went really badly. I got really nervous and forgot everything I was going to do. And really, it's been a long time since that interview so I'm not even bothered about it now. Just moving on.

I have been here with Kyle and Jayna and cute little Maren (Who has finally stopped crying and consented to taking a bottle. But it wasn't without much effort on the part of Kyle who gallantly endured her screaming while I came in here and turned up the music...)for almost three months. I hope that it's not going to be much longer because I am dying in this little room. There is just not enough space. I mean, I like staying with them, they're great, and we haven't hardly argued at all, it's just that there is not enough space for all of us, especially since I think Maren is going to need her own room starting in a couple of months. So I really need to get my life figured out and do something. But let's not think about that right now.

It is a rainy, rainy Saturday and I am bored out of my mind. There are things I SHOULD be doing but the thought of doing them is kind of nauseating so I am writing in this instead. All I can think about writing is things to complain about, and that would get cynical and pessimistic so I'm going to look up some story starters and write one of them for the end of this post instead.

story starter courtesy of http://writing-prompts-and-story-starters.blogspot.com/



"You're telling me that this is the bus?" said Detective Armstrong, jabbing a finger at the half-submerged wreck. "This is the bus we've been looking for? This is the bus that went missing just twenty-four hours ago?" He laughed, cold and flat, humorless, then took a final drag on his cigarette before dropping it into the sand and scuffing it out with his heel, violently, as if it was the source of all his woes. "What the hell happened here?"

 "Damned if I know." the cop replied. "That's why we called you." He was a young fellow, mid-twenties or early thirties at the most. His blonde hair ruffled in the breeze and he shifted uncomfortably in his shoes, as he gazed at the wreck of a bus.
"Well that's just it isn't it?" At this distance Armstrong could just make out the number on the bus: 421. He rolled his eyes, annoyed. "We're just expected to figure everything out. Just call us up and we'll solve all your problems."
"That's what I was told, sir." the officer replied. Stevens, Armstrong remembered. That was his name. "You guys deal with all the weird stuff."
Armstrong snorted. "That's what you were told huh? Well, I wish they wouldn't tell you that. It's not like we have any more intel then you. We just use our brains and have a fancier name." He laughed again, but stopped fairly quickly when Stevens didn't reply.
"Well, let's take a look." He sighed as he started toward the bus. The damp sand squelched under his shoes as Armstrong ducked under the yellow tape and approached the skeletal remains of the bus. He cursed softly as he approached and got a first look at the the morbid remains inside. This was the stuff of nightmares and CSI reruns. Things like this didn't actually happen in real life. At least the bus was on the outskirts of town and not smack downtown where it would attract the attention of screaming citizens and rabid news reporters.


Ok just writing that much took me like 45 minutes. That's my problem with writing. It takes me a long time to write things, and then I have to go back and re-write them over and over. One of these days I'm going to take a writing class. But it is not this day. This day, I need to finish this up and actually do something productive with my life. So this is me, finishing up.

It doesn't matter what I write, I'll just think it's stupid later.

What a day it has been. Actually, it's been a busy couple of days. Something is sort of happening with my life so I don't have to be cynical and negative and sit around and do nothing all the time. Yay!

It's really hard being patient, and it's especially hard now that things are ALMOST happening but not quite. Also, I'm fairly terrified of the future. It's going to be hard. Also, also, why is this screen so bright? I really wish I could tone it down but this silly website insists on lots of white-ness. Maybe they're racist. That was my attempt at a lame joke. :)

So here's the dealio. After I posted and was cynical about my life, I decided to get up off my rear and do some stuff. I went and saw Cali and it was soooo much fun. Her children are adorable. Jocelyn is 14 months old, and just getting to the stage where she's exploring EVERYTHING. She's just learned to walk so she's constantly getting into everything and finding new and exciting things to put in her mouth. Lyla is three and learning a lot of new words, and using even more new words, even when she doesn't really know what they mean yet. And then it was just fun to see Cali. I think I am closer to her in some ways than I am even with my sisters. Goodness knows I see her more often than my sisters sometimes. We talked late into the night and then had fun making cake this morning before I had to leave to go to an orientation thing for substitute teaching.

Orientation was boring as all get out but I will hopefully be able to start subbing on Monday. But I won't because I randomly got an e-mail from a charter school I interviewed with before I went to Nauvoo called American Preparatory Academy. They didn't have an opening for me then, but apparently their woodwind teacher is going to quit and they would like me to come to an interview on Monday for the position. I am super excited about this. I reallllllly want the job, so hopefully they like me again and I can figure out how to be a good woodwind teacher. Eeeeeeeeeee!!!

And now for the best part of the day. I got to go see the President's Own Marine band play at a random High School in Orem. Like, the Marine band that's stationed in Washington DC and plays for the president. Some people have argued that it's one of the best bands in the world, and certainly in the United States. I don't know why they were performing at a random High School in Orem but I'm glad I got to go. Even cooler, I went with Rachel, Kelly, and Marsie, who are friends from Nauvoo. There's something about listening to really good music that makes me extremely happy, and this was really good. And when I say really good I mean professional grade, exceptional, oh my gosh it's so beautiful I'm going to die music. I need to find a band and join it so I can play again.

Ok I'm extremely tired, and my eyeballs are screaming at me, so I think this is going to be it. Hopefully I'll have good news to report next time I write. ") 

I'm going to try and start writing on here again, but I wouldn't be surprised if it doesn't happen very often...

Man, this website  has gotten more complicated since I created this blog waaaaay back in like 2009. How my life has changed since then. But a good change I think.

Having just returned from a short mission to Nauvoo, Illinois awhile ago (only a summer long, I rode around in a bandwagon and played my flute in the Nauvoo brass Band) I have decided that it is probably a good idea to start trying to document my life again, and I am way better at typing then I am at writing things down on paper so that's what I am going to do. The only problem with doing this, is that so much has happened that I feel like I need to explain that I get overwhelmed and just give up.

But hopefully this will be better.

I also really want to work on my writing, and I don't know of a better way to do that, then to write a journal-type thing. So we'll give it a go. And when I really don't feel like writing about my day, well, perhaps I'll write a short story, or make something up. As long as something gets written right?

Well. Here's my situation. I currently kind of hate my life but hopefully it will get better soon. See, I have now graduated from BYU Idaho, and after coming home from Nauvoo I find myself in one of those quarter-life crisis. I am not married, (And there are soooo many people who are judging me because of this, whether they do it consciously or not) nor am I seeing anyone, and so I obviously have no direction in life. (Because being married automatically makes you an adult with everything figured out...) I have moved in with my brother, living in Provo and I kind of hate it. But I don't know where else to go and Provo is a good place to meet people apparently even though I just sit in the house and do nothing.

I've applied to be a substitute teacher in the area and hopefully that starts soon. Maybe on Monday or sometime next week. Hopefully this part of my life passes soon and I will be less sadistic and have a more positive outlook on life. But let's end with something positive. Tomorrow I am going to go see my friend Cali who has two adorable children, and I get to hang out with her for awhile before I have to go try and be responsible again.
And I think that's how long this post is going to be today. The end. I have to take care of a baby.

I can't beat the Tron monster!

To clarify, I can't beat the Tron monster in the Tron section of Kingdom Hearts 2. This big robot guy with laser beams and stuff. And he's not even the biggest bad guy. But it's ok. I'm not that good at video games on account of I don't play them very often. But that's also ok, because not playing them very much is a sign that I hopefully do something better with my time. :) We hope.

So anyway, it's been awhile since I've written in here on account of I've been kind of lazy. But I shall try to keep up. Did I mention in my last post that I FINALLY got a semi-permanent job? Well I did! Yay! It's at Kent's in the deli. So every morning (Except Friday because I go to Nobilus Friday mornings...) I go to Kents and slice meat for them, and cheese, and make a bunch of sandwiches, dole out potato salad, (Which comes in milk cartons oddly enough.....) and the such. So fun. Well actually it's a lot more fun than working at Autoliv so I'll take it any day. Plus the company is much better.

Also another big thing that happened is that my brother finally got married. Yay! Just about a week ago. So that was a lot of fun, and also a bunch of stress mania. But not toooooo much. They tied the knot in the Logan temple. It was actually the first time I'd been to a sealing because I was in Thailand when Amber got married and Cali got sealed to Jake. It was really nice, and a lot simpler than I thought it would be. But after that was the fun part. We cleaned and cleaned and cleaned the house in preparation for the massive open house/reception thing that went on that evening. Also I made about 200 cupcakes and a bunch of cookies. It was great! And also I got to see Cali that weekend so I was happy. The reception went really well, lots and lots of people....and lots of treats.....but we made it somehow.

So now this weekend my parents (and the lovely couple) are in Texas on account of that being where Jayna is from, for a reception there. So I am stuck at my lovely house all by myself for the whole weekend. At first I was a little scared of it, but it's actually been really fun. I dragged my PS2 upstairs and I did DDR on it loudly last night. I've played some Kingdom Hearts which I haven't done in a very long time, and I got to practice my flute in the front room where it echoes really well. It was quite fun.

I've finally picked out what I'm going to play for my tryout and I'm finally getting into practicing. I really REALLY need to, if I have any hope of being any good when I go back to school in January. (And don't even get me started about registering for classes and that headache.....) But hopefully it will all be worth it.

Well, that's about all I can think of to write now. It's after five and Kimber's threatened to come kidnap to and have fun with her this evening, so I hope that happens sometime soon. Until then......I shall try to beat that Tron monster some more. จบ

Snuffalupagus

      Remember that guy? He used to be Big Birds friend on Sesame Street! I haven't seen that show for years so I have no idea if he's still there (probably not....that show got sooooo screwy...) but I loved him. And today I feel a little bit like him, stuffed up and a little depressed.
      We're all feeling a little under the weather this week, and I'm just barely starting to feel it. So really all I feel like typing is nnnnnnnnngggggg. But the world must go on. I sometimes feel like just typing this out makes me feel a little more sane so that's what I'm doing. Sort of.
      Today I made a dinner of fried rice, and it's just sitting on the stove with no one wanting to eat it. I made it out of necessity because I feel like we should have a good dinner on the table even though sometimes no one wants to eat it. With only three people in the house things are a lot different. So quiet all the time, and only my parents to talk to. Not that it's a bad thing, really they're great! But sometimes it just starts getting to you. Also the fact that I just can't seem to get a good job is getting me down. I have my hopes up that someone will call me tomorrow. We'll see. But what with soooo much time passing already, I can only work there, like two months and then I'm back to college. Sigh. Sigh sigh sigh. I think this is just a hard bit in my life. It shall get better when I go back to college I think.
      Sorry this one is just about me complaining. What is something good that has happened these past days?
Well, I got some money from what little work I'm doing, YAY! Also I had an AWESOME weekend with my whole family, which I wrote about before......and really I'm much luckier than many people, so I shouldn't complain.
      I will end this blog by showing my nerdy side and quoting Gandalf (because I just watched Lord of the Rings) when Frodo told him that he wished that he didn't have to deal with all the crap he was supposed to deal with. Or to be more elegant, Frodo said something like "I wish the ring had never come to me, I wish none of this had happened"
and Gandalf replied: "So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All you have to decide is what to do with the time that is given you."
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Wood thieves? My first instinct would be beavers, but i'm not willing to rule out those pesky keebler elves.

That my nonexistent friends reading this, is a quote from the TV show Psych which I watched with my little sister this evening. I love that show, but especially when I'm watching it with her, because everything is better when you're with your family and friends, which I was, this whole weekend. It was awesome. I'd forgotten how silly we get when we are all together. So much fun.

It was all fun, from our two epic Nertz battles, to a crazy, crazy DDR night. Neither Amber nor Jodie had danced the whole time I was gone, so it was fun to get together and reminisce and create some more memories as well.

This afternoon we went up Logan canyon a ways and took some family pictures. It was sooooooooo beautiful there. The leaves are at their most beautiful, and I shall stick a picture on here that I took with my phone. Not the best, cuz, it's from my phone, but hey. :)

So yeah. It was really fun. I kind of wish that I could just rewind this week and live it again, because now, when I wake up in the morning, I have to concentrate on getting more work again. Sigh. I just get a little depressed sometimes.

Also today I spoke in two wards today as a returned missionary. It was pretty fun. It makes me happy to know that I have become much more confident than I was before my mission, and I can do things like that pretty easily, or rather, I don't get so nervous I throw up or anything like I used to sorta do. So yeah. That's good. :) It's also good to remember things from my mission. It's really easy to forget.

Well, I think that's all I can think of for this report. Keep on keepin' on!
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Screwing in screws and

 Oh life. Life life life. Sometimes I just wish you didn't have to be stressful a good portion of the time.

Right now I'm sitting here waiting for my pops to come out and play Farkle or another such game with me. It's great fun. A game with dice completely up to luck. If you don't know how to play and would like to, look it up on google, I've no time to put it here. Plus that would be boring.
So, update on my life. I finally got a job yay! At Autoliv, and I want to claw my eyeballs out sometimes when I work there, on account of its so boring I'm going to die. But it's a job, and I will endure because I really need the money. Also I clean up a random factory called "Nobilus." They make doors I think.
So, I just lost spectacularly to my dad in a game of up-words. But it was really fun. I love Sunday evenings, they're the best. But tonight I'm tired. I'll do better next time. It'll be a nice long entry, with lots of smiles, and swirls, and happy things. Ehh.
Ok I think that's about it for tonight. I'm tired. Also it's late, all things indicate I should go to bed soon. So that is what I shall do.

Still not really knowing what to write.

I really feel like i should write in this to document the fact that my life is going by, but lately I just don't feel like there is anything to write about. I've just been looking for jobs, and getting more and more depressed as the days go by. It's stupid Satan getting to me.
But hopefully it's all going to change here in the next few days. I'm hopefully going to have at least one part-time job as a janitor, cleaning some facility, and maybe another one at Autoliv as a temporary worker. I think that will improve my outlook on life significantly. :)
So, ya. Life as a returned missionary is turning out to be harder than I thought it would be. When I was still out there, I just didn't know what to expect because it seemed like my whole life had been spent being a missionary, and my life before that was just a dream, words on a computer screen every P-day, and the occasional letter. But it's all here, all real, and now my previous life as a missionary is starting to feel more and more like the dream. I hate it. I hate it, and I don't know what to do about it. Just accept that this is the life I have now, and deal with it. Easier said than done. But it can be done, with help. If there's one thing I have definitely learned, it's that NOTHING is impossible if you have the Lord on your side. So that's what I'm going to do. จบ.

Riding a bicycle and finding a job.

First one, easy peasy......I even learned how to ride with no hands. (Yes, it took me a long time because, really, I'm not that good. But hey...) It's easy. Finding a job, harder. Sigh.
I feel like I'm slowly going insane one brain cell at a time, every day that I have to spend at this house by myself. So I just need to find a job to keep me occupied. Right now I'm just feeling a little depressed because, really, I've been trying hard, but since I'm not going to be her that long no one wants a temp. :(
But I have two happy things about today.
One: I went on a really fun bike ride with my father today. First time I'd been on a bike since my mission and it felt great. obviously not the same at all, but still nice. Perhaps I'll do it more often.
And two: Sister Harris told me how to change my computer so that it can write Thai. I's so cool! I just have to press a little button and voila! It writes in Thai! Now I can do this: อ่ำก่ำรฟวก้ศ that doesn't actually say anything that I know of, on account of I was too lazy to find the letters and try to spell them...but hey! It's cool! And that's all I have to say for today. I'm tired. The End. 

Hello there old friend!

It's been a looooooooooooooong time since I've written in this blog. A long time. But that's ok.
I am a completely different person than the one that wrote all that other stuff. Still nerdy, and still somewhat shy, but also very different. A mission'll do that to you. Especially one to Thailand.Now there is WAY to much to explain for it all to go on here, so I'm just going to start from scratch I think.
Right now I'm stuck in my parent's house (which is much bigger than it was when I left) with just my parents. My oldest brother is engaged and living in Springville, my oldest younger sister is happily married, and my youngest younger sister is now in Provo being a cute freshman. And I'm here. Whoodie doo. Eww.
Desperately looking for a job, but since I'm only going to be here like three and a half months that's a downer. Sigh. Sigh sigh sigh sigh.
On the bright side, I'm getting better at writing in Thai, and also discovered a really lazy-ish way to do it, so now I can keep in touch with all my Thailand friends. Yes. I can tell that I'm really out of practice at this. I shall think some and update more later. But I think it shall be good for me to update this every now and again to keep me sane. Yes.
Ok bye. 

Popcorn and procrastination.

So I'm supposed to be doing my music lit homework right now and I'm probably going to regret not doing it....but I seem to be all about procrastination right now, that and the popcorn I've commandeered from Lerin. Some of it just flew out of my mouth and hit the screen. Gross. But don't worry I have properly sanitized the screen so we're good.
I am so excited for Thanksgiving break it's almost unbearable, or at least it feels like it sometimes. The thing is though I get a whole week off, I have to practice for two hours a day including on Thanksgiving and also I have an insane amount of homework to complete. Blarg.
BUT! On Friday which is TOMORROW after I get home I am going to watch the New Star Trek movie with Kimber, which I am way too excited about.....and I'm hopefully going to find my way to West Valley to visit Cali while I'm home....Jodie is going to give me a tour of the new high school. Well half. Well, what happened is they're making major modifications to the one we have. Like tearing down most of it...only problem is students also have to go to school while this is happening...so it's kinda crazy. It'll be interesting to see what they've done....
Ya. So that's pretty much all I have to say but I wanted to update. Oh maybe I'll put something about my week. I'm happy to report that I am kicking piccolo butt more than it's kicking my butt and though I have lots of work still to do, I think I may actually perform something I can be proud of.
All my other classes are boring. Well not really I just don't feel like thinking about them right now. I just want to go hoooooooooooooooooome.
K that's about all I can think of for now. Just felt like updating so I did. Bye!

Hello there my neglected blog!

I'm sorry I haven't updated you lately Mr. Blog!
...although I have no idea why I'm referring to you like you're a person.........
....and also if you were to have human characteristics you would be female...cuz I am....and this is....my...life....ok whatever I'm putting way too much into something very irrelevant.
The point is, I have not updated this in awhile. And boy has a lot happened.
First things, I am going on a mission. Wow. Like it doesn't really seem real to me yet. But when I go home in the winter instead of going back to school it'll probably hit. I've already sold my contract and I'm going to apply for deferment, or whatever, I'm going to go to the school admin and defer my schooling on account of a mission. And since this is a church school they actually encourage this sort of thing instead of making it difficult so that's nice.
My roommate Nyssa is also going on a mission and, truth be told that was probably the turning point that convinced me to go on one as well, but I have been thinking about this for a very long time, since before Cali's wedding. I didn't think I would do it so soon though. I was sure I was going to be here winter semester. I suppose the Lord has other plans for me, and if that's so I'm content to go along with them. :) Wow.
So that means I'm now going to mission prep classes and temple prep classes, the works. I'm learning lots, I love it. Also I've officially started filling out my papers so that's exciting. I hope to have them in soon after Thanksgiving.

Ok, so what else is happening in my life? Lots of music.....but thats normal. I'm playing piccolo in the symphony band and it's kicking my butt. But never fear, I will have that piccolo's butt kicked by the time the concert comes along. It's going to be awesome.
I've kind of just fallen into a routine that I do over and over and over as I go through my life. Classes, homework, practice, class, practice go home and do more homework. Not that it's a bad thing but I don't really have a life except I go over to Marisa's every once in awhile to watch movies or something.
Oh, I did go with Marisa to her hometown of Jerome, Idaho for a weekend. That was fun...I learned a lot about life, and also weird as it seems, I learned kind of what it's like to be a not-Utah Mormon. We played in her sacrament meeting for her boyfriends farewell which was fun. We went to a party and played pool, watched too many movies and went four wheeling. Oh and her mom is an AMAZING cook. We had homemade pizza the first day, potato bacon soup the second, and oh shoot. I want to say Thai food but it wasn't Thai. It was something like that though. I shall have to ask her.

Tonight was my FHE brother's birthday so we made him dinner...Hawaiian haystacks and spice cake cupcakes. Delicious, I ate way too much. In fact I think I'm going to go get the leftover olives and eat them. Ha ha ha ha!!! What an evil person I am.
Mmmmm munch munch. Ok what else. Tomorrow I don't have school til eleven thirty yay! (Which is extra great because I usually have to be at school at seven fourty five.)
Ok I can't think of anything else except I really can't wait for Thanksgiving break! But weirdly enough I also kind of want time to go slower because this is potentially the last semester I will spend with the roommates I have and that will be sad. :(
Oh can't end this on a bad note. Something good.....perhaps just that I am very grateful for the experiences I've been able to have and the people that have blessed my life. I'm not sure what to expect next but I'm going to face it boldly and walk forward with my head held high.
Hopefully it won't be so long before I update this again. 'til then.

soooo tired. But satisfied.

Fulfilling the obligation I feel to report on the crazy weekend I just had:
I don't know why. It just feels like when I write things down perhaps I won't lose it so fast.
Anyway, I left for home Friday at two. The girls I rode with were really nice, but they all seemed to know each other somehow whereas I just found them on the ride board.
That evening there was a bbq at Jake's house for all those who were going to participate in the wedding. I was kinda hoping they would do toasts or something but they didn't. As I've said before it was pretty nontraditional. Cali was looking really stressed so Mckell and I decided, after dinner we would take her hostage. So we did. We all got in our pjs, got frozen yogurt and then just did whatever we felt like 'til super late then had one last sleepover just for old times sake. Really really fun. One of the best parts though, was when we got to my house I found a note on the door (from my sisters) that said "follow the frosted flake trail to find a prize." So we did. They had actually laid a trail of frosted flakes through the kitchen and into the laundry room. In there was an empty box of frosted flakes that said "this box may LOOK empty, but it's full of love!" hee hee. Plus we found all kinds of other sticky notes all over the house. My sisters are awesome.
When I woke up Saturday morning, it was to find out that the sniffles I had been trying to suppress all evening had evolved into a full fledged head cold. Oh joy. So I was basically drugged up the entire of the wedding so that I wouldn't sneeze when the preacher asked for anyone to "say now or forever hold your peace." :) In spite of that, the wedding was awesome. I think I've come to better terms with Jake even. Here, I'm going to put up a picture. (p.s. I didn't notice 'til now, but Jake seems very serious in this pic. Not much of a smile, and dark sunglasses. Maybe he works for the men in black instead of the army... :) My dress turned out ok even though the sleeves were pinned on. They're going on their honeymoon in a car covered in creamed corn, bologna, sauerkraut, cocoa powder, ranch dressing, and more toilet paper in than out. Sheesh. It's cuz Jake's best man is nuts. Like really really nuts.
Ok what else? Umm, it was held in the park and we were SUPER SUPER lucky it didn't rain. Jeni Allen caught the boquet and her fiance got the garter. Big surprise there.
Mostly I'm glad it's finally over. So much drama over with. But I'm gonna miss that girl.
Also conference was EXCELLENT. The part that I heard anyway, although I'm sure the rest of it was as well. I didn't see Saturday obviously, and Sunday I kept falling asleep on account of the cold medicine was on.
Oh, I am SOO excited to hear that Brigham City gets a temple! So excited! If it's finished before I'm married, I definitely want to get married there. Who knows, maybe Cali and Jake will be sealed there....although I think they want to to that earlier than like two years from now.
Got back to Idaho about ten. Still sick. Have school tomorrow. I might not go to my first class, we'll see how I feel.

Just spitting out random things.....

So its been quite a long time since I've gotten around to updating this thing.....
A lot has happened I guess but most of it is school stuff. I'm in Idaho (obviously) and just you know, schooling. Yay.
Scary thing.....I am three semesters away from my senior recital. Eee! Like, my flute teacher wants me to start working on the music next semester. It's gonna take that long. That is so crazy! But life just keeps going on and on relentlessly. It can't do anything else I suppose. Unless I had the power to go through time or something.
Which reminds me....the new season of Heroes started tonight and I'm excited to watch it! I don't ever get to watch it live cuz we don't have cable (although we do have a TV that works FINALLY so I can do DDR and we can watch movies) but I just watch it online later. I'm gonna watch it to reward myself for getting all my homework (and maybe a little extra) done tomorrow.
So ya. My workload actually isn't too hard this semester, I only have 13 credits because I dropped my English class. I really like it though because now I can get all my practicing done before 4 0'clock every day except Tuesdays on account of having Master class when I'm supposed to practice. I feel more on top of things than I have in other semesters.
This weekend I'm going home so I can see Cali get married. So that's exciting I guess. It's taken FOREVER but it's finally here. I'm kinda glad to be getting it all over with, and I know Cali is; she hasn't been taking the stress very well lately. I'm predicting that getting married won't make any of the stress go away though. Sigh. My mother is making my dress but since I'm not there to do measurements she's using Amber. We're approximately the same size (like everywhere :) ) so it should fit ok.
Sigh. Today is Monday. I hate Mondays. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Off to Idaho......

So tonight is my last night here in good 'ol Brigham. Yes, I am leaving all my adoring fans and returning to Idaho. Or something like that anyway. I have packed all of my life (except for a small overnight bag) into our marshmallow minivan and tomorrow and like 7:30 in the morning we are going to drive up to Idaho. Why so early you ask? Well we decided to get there in time to go to my cousin's church. THEN we're going to have a somewhat massive Sunday dinner with the Webbs, the Watkins, the Richins/Roemichs AND Aunt Karen and Nichole. It's going to be awesome.

After that it's back to school! I'm really excited about it but also a little nervous. Apparently the stakes have been raised. Or the bar has been raised. Or something. It's getting harder and harder to become a flute player, like the juries are going to be WAY more intense. Also I still have to figure out what classes I'm taking, like I have my schedule planned out, but it could al change depending on what (or if) ensemble I'm gonna get into. Mostly I don't like to think about it, but it's coming so I have too.

One happy thing though is I got a new phone!! Yay! I like it but it's definitely going to get some getting used to. Especially the texting. Sigh. K I just don't feel like typing anything else tonight.
Update when I'm in Idaho.

eyeball headaches and dry lips my favorite!

Well, actually it's not actually my favorite. Thats just how I feel tonight. I thought I'd do a quick update even though it's late.

Lets see, blah blah blah working blah blah blah, I did pick get the materiel and stuff for my dress for Cali's wedding. That was kinda fun....it's going to be lightish teal, and its really really cute! Kinda the same color as that dress that Nyssa has (I think she made it for prom). It's strapless though so we have to make a jacket to go with it.

Also that weekend my cousins, my sisters, and I dyed our hair red and purple. That was fun although after camping most of the sun bleached it out. Jodie's was really purple for awhile. There are, of course pics on facebook. Seriously we pretty much put our whole lives on there.

I went camping with my family this Mon, through tonight. We got home about nine thirty. It was really fun. I turned off my cell phone and with it went the drama. Yay! Even though the nights were super cold, and my feet got blisters it was sooooooooo nice to be away from the drama. And my sisters and I didn't fight once while we were up there which was also nice. I'm so glad we get along so well.

The biggest thing occupying my time now is that Cali's bridal shower is going to be at my house the 29th of August. And Cali accidentallly put 5-9 instead of 5-8 so now we have to entertain a bunch of people for 4 instead of 3 hours. Sheesh its a lot more stressful than I thought it would be. And we have to make the dress which is going to take forever. AND I'm out of money so Cali's mother is funding the shower mostly which I feel really bad about, but I really really can't afford it so it's the only way its going to run. Sigh.

K now I'm off to bed after taking some asprin for aforementioned eyeball headache. Toodles!

Summer depression is setting in.....or something.

Sigh. It has been a loooooooooooooooooong summer. And I still have a month to go. Part of me can't WAIT for summer to get over, and other parts of me really don't want it to end. Also I'm having trouble coping with the fact that my best friend has replaced me, but I don't have anyone to replace her. So I spend a lot of days alone or with my family. On the upside, I'm spending lots of quality time with my sisters.

Speaking of quality time with my sisters....last weekend I went to a secondhand serenade concert with them and it was EXCELLENT. Possibly the funnest day of summer so far. It was at Thanksgiving Point which is like 20 mins away from Provo, and about 30 mins or so past South Salt Lake if you care. It was an outdoor performance so we just put a blanket out on the grass. We weren't that close to the stage though we did walk up as close as we could when secondhand serenade actually started singing so we could be with the group that was jumping up and down and belting out the songs insead of in the back where the people were mostly making out on thier blankets. :) A group called Single File performed first (they were ok......) then We Shot the Moon who was better (and they gave us free samples of their new CD which is pretty good) Then a band called Parachute who's song "she is love" is apparently really popular on the radio although I don't really like it. Hee hee ok. Then at like 9:30 (it started at 7) secondhand serenade actually started and it went til 11. Man I had so much fun it was great. And thanks for letting me rant about it for a really long paragraph.

Seriously nothing else has happened this summer. And nothing else is planned. I don't even get to go to peach days because its a week later on account of Labor Day being a week later on account of September starting on a Tuesday. Usually Peach Days is the last weekend before I go up, but its the weekend after this year. Bummer. And I was kinda planning on being in the Peach Queen Pagent (for the experience and also cuz my job would have sponsored me) but I guess thats out.

I am going to go to drive my mommy to Salt Lake on Friday so she can get her chemo, and since it takes like 4 hours my Aunt Wendy is going to take me (and Jodie) to lunch and also perhaps shopping if we're lucky. So I guess that'll be fun.
K thats it. Bye

Update!!

Heeeeeeey there folks! It's an update!!!
Pretty much my life is about chicken and tacos and stupid stupid drama right now. But thats ok.
Lets see.......
Well I went to Heber with Cali last weekend to go shopping and also a family reunion. The shopping was really fun, the reunion was really boring especially since it wasn't even my family. To alleviate the boringness Cali and I took like a billion pictures which are, of course up on facebook. So go look at them if you want. Also, maybe I'll stick one up here. Might as well.We're nerds I know, but life is so much more fun that way. I know I'll stick up the one of us with the gigantic Stormtrooper made of Legos. He was quite the guy.

K what else? Well there's the whole wedding drama thing, which I guess is just panning out the way most do with lots and lots of drama. But I don't know if I've said but I get to throw the shower which I am sooooo excited about. I'm going to do it in my (well not MY but my parents? K whatev you get the point) backyard cuz it's real big. Not sure what we're going to do yet, games, or whatnot but it's going to be awesome! Planned for the last Sat in August.

I did go see Harry Potter though not on opening night or anything. Like everyone I've talked to LOVED it, but I actually didn't like it that much. I really liked the 5th one so maybe my expectations were too high. The thing was that it didn't really ever have any action. Or maybe it didn't seem like it because I've read the books and I know whats going to happen. Someone ahead of me got mad cuz I was getting bored and when they were in the cave I practically shouted "Don't touch the water!" Also the Inferi looked like Gollum. I kept expecting them to go my precious! Hee hee. Also I was mad they skipped the whole battle at the end. And instead of acting everyone just stood around awkwardly. Ok fine I'll stop criticizing. I told Jodie I'd go again with her so I'm giving it a second chance.

What else? Oh. I officially made my nerd status go up 7 points by purchasing Star Trek 1-4 from Kimber for 20 dollars. I didn't really like 2 but for 20 bucks it was worth it. Ahhhhhhhhhh. If that stupid movie had never come out I would not be wasting so much of my time on this. Oh well. I usually get really obsessed for awhile and then I'm done. Shouldn't be much longer 'til I'm done.

K well that's all I can think of. Hmmm last night I went to a potluck in the park with my sisters and my mama, (who is doing really well despite the fact she's now a baldy. I totally thought she'd cave and buy a wig but she didn't! She's awesome!!!!) and then came home and just hung out with them. It was nice, I haven't done that it quite a while.
K well I guess I'm pretty much done. Have fun y'all and I'll see if I can't remember to do this a little more often.
Bbbbbyyyyyyeeeeee

"Being a nerd means you're allowed to get unironically enthusiastic about stuff.....when people call people nerds, mostly what they're saying is "you like stuff!" which is just not a good insult at all." -John Green-

Back to the usual as you can see.....

Sigh.
It's been forever since I've updated this. I really need to. Life is life is life is life. Same as usual I guess. Today I went to work 11-4 and then at 6 they called me in til 11:00. Things like that happen way to often to me although I really need the money.
Umm something huge huge huge huge that has happened is that Cali is engaged to Jake now and I'm her maid of honor. I'm really happy for them but it is so much work! Holy cow! And I'm not even the one getting married. Also there is way too much drama. I think when I get married drama is going to be illegal. The date is set for Oct 3 so I'm gonna have to come down for the wedding, and also tons of other things that first month. I really hope school won't be too crazy.
Speaking of which I can't even register for the bloomin' classes I need to and I really need to get it figured out soon. Sigh. It's just hard to think about school when there's so much else to think about.
Oh Rena went home that was sad. We really miss her. Uhhhhhh what else? I've spent a lot of time walking with my dad, ddr-ing with Jo, and watching way too much star trek to be considered normal.
Tomorrow and Saturday I'm going to be attending a massive family reunion on my mother's side of the family. I don't think all of my moms brothers and sisters have gotten together in a very long time so it's going to be quite the reunion.
Oh also my mom is doing really well. She had her first bout of chemo a few weeks ago and her hair is starting to fall out a little bit. But she staunchly refuses to by a wig and says she's going to wear scarves the whole time. I think she's going to cave. After chemo there's going to be radiation every m-f for like 3 weeks. She'll be done in like October. Sigh. Man I've been sighing way too much. I should be more cheerful. :P :)
Ok I'm done. Sooner than last time I hope.

"Since my customary farewell seems oddly self serving, I will simply say good luck."

Ten points to whoever knows what movie that quote is from.
Actually I'm just going to tell you because I want to talk about it. I just got back from the new Star Trek Movie and it was nerdtastically excellent. Actually it was also excellent in a kind of non nerdy way as well which surprised me. Even though Spock was actually Sylar. (From Heroes. Ya I'm probably the only one that watches that show.) But I only thought he was going to steal Kirk's brain at the beginning. I got past it fairly quickly. But now it's like one in the morning and I can't sleep. It's cuz we'd been planning on going to see the movie a bunch of times but things got in the way and we'd put it off like 3 or 4 times. So even though it was a Monday night, we went at 9:45. Hee hee.

Man my life has been crazy lately. Mostly I've just worked a lot. I've worked 35-40 hours at my job every week, which means I'm really sick of chicken right now. But I'm also grateful that I have a job because I know quite a few people who don't have them and can't get one. Stupid Economy. So really the reason that I haven't updated it quite awhile is mostly that I haven't really had the time, or when I have had time I forgot to. Oops.

Also because something has happened, or rather I found out something that I've been avoiding thinking about but I can't really not write it here because its such a big part of my life right now and I suppose the whole point of this IS to write down whats happening in my life. Awhile ago we found out that my mother has breast cancer. When my mom told us about it I kind of didn't believe it because my Aunt also just found out she had breast cancer. But it's true. She's going in for surgery this Friday and starts chemo soon after that. Sigh. They say that this is very survivable and that we shouldn't worry about her dying or anything, but it's going to be a tough summer. Because of the chemo, we won't have a mom a lot of the time. I'm sure we'll be able to get along, I mean Jo's the youngest and she's 15, it's just going to be different. It scares me a bit. Sigh. Mostly I cope by not thinking about it.

And that's my life in a nutshell. That and Cali and Jake are practically engaged so I'm losing my best friend. Seriously I see no reason to come back to Utah next summer. I can take some summer classes, flute lessons or whatever, and if I can find a job I'll be able to get money.....sigh sigh sigh sigh. It's going to be a looooooooooooooooooooooong summer.